When is enough, enough?
My co-writer/best friend Vo and I recently came to the conclusion that we both have been in the situations where we have asked ourselves “why do I put up with this?” and we know we are not the only ones who have asked ourselves that. It’s impossible to be happy ALL the time in your relationship. I mean ANY relationship, whether its your with your family, friends or boyfriend/girlfriend.
Vo and I are going to take turns telling you about our situations and thoughts on this topic, but before we do take a second and really think about that question, “why do you put up with it?”. I personally know that when I was asked this very say question, I had no way to answer it. The only thing I would think of to say was ” well, I…I love him” and if you knew my situation at the time you would of thought this answer was completely stupid.
So with that in mind I’ll take a minute to ask you is “love” really enough? I mean I know in order for any relationship to work you have to have love for the other person. In the case of an actual significant other I would hope your with someone you love if not could eventually see yourself loving. Let me tell you love can be a very beautiful thing once its found, and love truly is the gift that keeps on giving….[insert big BUT here]…can love really just be enough to make a relationship grow? Isn’t true you could love someone who just isn’t the right one for you, or love someone who is a complete asshole?
In my personal experience, at the age of 16 I could of sworn I met the boy I was to spend the rest of my life with, the guy I was in LOVE with, for the sake of his identity we will call him V. Of course he was everything I could ever want right? I mean isn’t that normally how these stories go? V had his really good qualities and our relationship was perfect for the first two years,I mean don’t get me wrong we had our little fights like any relationship but nothing to ask myself “why am I with him”, then like milk left out in the sun, it started to turn sour. All of a sudden V didn’t want me spending so much time with my friends, didn’t like that I had guy friends, went through my phone while my back was turned, didn’t want me going out to parties, etc. Even while I was rushing to beat him to my house so he wouldn’t know I was this party or that party I didn’t think there was anything wrong with this.Even when other people started noticing and asking me “why do you put up with this? you don’t deserve this.” I would simply answer ” I love him”. It hadn’t dawned on me that this wasn’t love, you aren’t suppose to be afraid of the one you “love”, you’re not suppose to always look behind you in fear that he would know you went out or talked to this person behind his back. Even after V cheated on me with a girl I had went to elementary school with I thought we could somehow make this relationship work because again ” I loved him”. He of course said all the right things to stay around a day longer than he should have.
Now V was verbally and mentally abusive, and he was most definitely a cheater but he had never laid a hand on me, so I always gave him credit for that. That was until the day finally came around where he decided to take it a step further and hit me. That’s when it finally hit me like a ton of bricks ” WHY AM I WITH HIM!?!?!” I could do SO MUCH BETTER. That was my breaking point. Thats when enough became enough. After that it got rocky, but we’ll save that story for another topic, probably one about stalkers and car brickers lol. At the end of the day love wasn’t good enough to help our relationship through all of the lows we had, and I realized enough really was enough for me and he had to go.
I realize I was stupid than but I’ve grown since than and if I could get at least ONE person to really think about the questions I’ve asked you and really evaluate your relationship than I know it was all worth it.
Now, my current boyfriend (we’ll call him Way), well he’s a different story, we’ve been together for 3.5 years now and he’s never once been verbally or mentally abusive, never laid a hand on me and he never will. We do have our pity little fights and sometimes they do escalate and we end up saying things we probably shouldn’t have and I’ll find myself thinking (occasionally even saying it out loud in front of Way) ” God, why am I with you?” and than I think about to V and realize Way is no where near that, I do LOVE him. Now I’m in no way saying love is enough in this relationship but its been a really great starting place, which lead us to build trust, respect, communication, faith, family, bond and connections on top. V and I never had anything other than “love” we never used love as a foundation to build off of. Way and I have our ups and downs, our highs and lows but at the end of the day we realize we love each other and that in turn reminds us of all that we have built for US, and we aren’t willing to throw that away. So I guess for us love is enough, and I haven’t quite had enough of him. (stayed tuned though, it might change lol).
I’ve written enough for this post, time to let Vo do her thing.
My boyfriend and I have been together for 2 years now. I have friends who have been with their boyfriends for 5 years and 4 years, and I know that in all that time it’s never just smooth sailing. Being in a relationship with someone is hard work. You have to put time and effort in to make it last, and put up with that other persons bad habits and qualities (they also have to put up with yours). There have been times when my boyfriend and I have been fighting that I asked myself, “Why do I put up with this?” and I have been asked “why do you put up with him?” and I wonder, is “love” a good enough answer? because honestly I couldn’t really answer her when she asked me, I only replied “I guess the same reasons why you put up with it from your boyfriend”
Now as a women I’ve always said “If a man ever cheats on or me hits me, it’s over!” of course that leaves out the guy being a total jerk, or if the flame just dies out. There have been 2 relationships I’ve really grown from. one at 17, and the guy was a total jerk! He denied it but I think he, just like his family, had an issue with my ethnicity. He would say things that put me down, called me a bitch, and I began to feel bad about being who I was. Needles to say I put my foot down and got tired of him constantly putting me down and making me feel stupid, and ended things. After him I added “if he ever calls me a bitch” to the list to deal breakers.
Another relationships I was in was with one of the sweetest guys I’ve ever known. We went to high school together and everyone knew him. We got together our senior year and it was all good for a while. But then I began to see him as just my friend. There was no passion there, and it was slowly getting worse and worse. He was my first year long relationship and it broke my heart knowing I had to break his. This kind of enough was a tough one. As sweet and kind as he was, and as well as he treated me, I just wasn’t feeling it and had put off breaking things off for too long because I was scared what our friends would say since everyone knew and loved him. But I couldn’t let that keep me in a relationships I was unhappy in and had the potential to get worse. I knew if I stayed I would hurt him more by leaving him for someone else.
I, along with Aly G, have asked “why am I with him? why do I put up with him?” in my current relationship and I think saying “Because I love him” (as stupid as it sounds) is really true. When we’re in love, or think we are, we’ll put up with anything. The cheating, the mean words, the straight up abuse. But once in a while we have to ask ourselves, “is this what I want? is this how I want the rest of my life to be?”
As Bob Marley put it “The truth is, everyone is going to hurt you. You just got to find the ones worth suffering for.”
And no matter who it is, everyone you know, especially the ones you love are going to hurt you, fact is, you have to ask yourself “is it worth it?”. To me the con’s don’t out weight the pro’s. And I think that’s what really matters. Yeah you’re going to have your up’s down’s and all the jazz, but at the end of the day, do they still make you happy?
I can honestly say that my boyfriend J and I have had more up’s than down’s, and there have been times when he’s said or done something that’s made me throw out “if you ever do that again we’re done” and I do mean it, I just hope and pray he never puts me to the testing it. We still have a lot to work on as a couple and as individuals, but as they also say, “Rome wasn’t built in a day” and neither is love, it’s constantly growing and changing, and it’s up to us to take care of it, and snip off the thorns every once in a while.
A relationships is a two way street, not one person can carry the weight alone. Remember to be true to yourself above anything else. Find the guy that will put up with your bad side, and bad habit without being a d-bag about it, and if you have a list of deal breakers, stick to your guns!! As hard as it is, don’t ever think it’s the end of the world for love. Sometimes your absence is what it might take to open their eyes, and want to change for you. (don’t ever try to change someone, they have to try and do it themselves… but that might be a topic for another day)
Bottom line is: What are you willing to put up with? Who are you willing to suffer for? Take heed from those around you and SEEK ADVICE FROM WOMEN IN A RELATIONSHIP!! cause more than not we’ve been there to.
Respect – Aretha Franklin – song that goes with todays theme a little bit
Tags: breaking point, relationships